NOT A REAL SONG (Lyrics by John Feelings)

a person's longing for another person
oh shit
my brains heading against wall
oh shit
mind shouting loud, black clouds
over me
demons pumping round
over me
people laughing around you
not me
somebody gets so much, too much
not me
could you tell, reasons of life
for me
is there happiness, good memories, lucky numbers
for me
sky so silent, god so quiet, no wisper, no help
no, no, no
lying my bed, hours, days, runing so fast
no, no, no
my life was so meaningful, now only demos are wispering
can you hear me
darkness closer, closer, running like wild horses
over me, not me, why
deep sea gets me, lovely silence, no cry, no memories
only sadness, having all time
lying on my bed, still life has won, me back
only hope, only tiny hope, keeps me running
i got to go this through, time after time
up and down, mind goes, so epic

time after time, lying on my bed
only hope, just hope, gets me running
darkness, go away, give me mercy
time after time, lying on my bed

could you tell, reasons of life
for me
is there happiness, good memories, lucky numbers
for me
sky so silent, god so quiet, no wisper, no help
no, no, no
lying my bed, hours, days, runing so fast
no, no, no
my life was so meaningful, now only demos are wispering
can you hear me
darkness closer, closer, running like wild horses
over me, not me, why
deep sea gets me, lovely silence, no cry, no memories
only sadness, having all time
lying on my bed, still life has won, me back
only hope, only tiny hope, keeps me running
i got to go this through, time after time
up and down, mind goes, so

time after time, lying on my bed
only hope, just hope, gets me running
darkness, go away, give me mercy
time after time, lying on my bed